My 33rd Birthday

September 22, 2017

Today I turned 33. The thing is, for a few months after having Benny I actually thought I was 33. So in my last year, I learned many lessons… two being that baby brain is real and also that I am not in fact 33, but 32,

I feel like the last five years of my life have been a whirlwind. My life is so significantly different than in was, I’m so much further away from memories that feel like yesterday and I still feel so connected to. I’d like to shoutout to Apple for creating group texts so I can stay connected to friends and family, and pretend like we are all still neighbors.

Becoming a Mother this year was an experience that changed my heart and changed my mind. There is no explaining it. Everyone always said, “if you love your dog that much wait until you have a baby.” Well guess what, I still love Gerty that much. And I love Benny differently, with a different piece of my heart I didn’t know existed. I love my step children that much, with a whole other piece of my heart that never existed. Having kids is like growing limbs on your soul – you can’t believe you ever operated without them, and they are so much of what you are.

For thirty three, I’m taking it to a whole new level. I hope to love those around me with an open mind and heart. To show others that life may be hard but friendship and family is a soft place to fall. That nobody is ever alone, no matter how lonely you can feel. That life moves at a pace some of us can’t keep up with, so try to stay in the moment and enjoy it. And in the words of my sister in law, aging is a GIFT. 💜

December 9, 2012

I feel like I was very hormonal when I wrote this. In fact, I actually may have been pregnant when I posted it and I am happy to know I felt so happy on this day.